There was a time

 There was a time, when I was free, I was happy, I was excited, I loved everything around, I loved everything inside but now .... Now is the time when no such thoughts or feelings wanders around. It's a vaccum. I struggling to pace up my life, with days rolling so fast, calender pages flipping in a block I am stuck. My feet are frozen as I am unable to step ahead. Newness seems to be a distant dream. Once a charmer has faded away. 

This emptiness is vast, lasting long, trying pseudo techniques of bringing life to the moment doesn't help much. I never imagined to have been living in such a delusional way. I always tried to life embrace tight but may be I was in a void ever since.

Life have regrets to offer too.

I dont like seeing him in dreams. But i still see him, one after another. The more i see him bigger the grudge becomes of losing him early, grudge of not standing up to his expectations ever. Grudge for being the reason why he was gone so soon. 

When it reveal itself...everything changes.

The truth will always be the truth no matter how old it grows, how many times it is sabotaged, how many of us ignores it or how many times it is been prisoned but when the day comes and truth unleashes itself from the bars it changes everything. Some may call it fortune but for most of them it brings the fear. Fear of losing their life as falling deck of cards only this time they cannot find the king of ace.   

To a friend…yes I do.

Consoling a friend is always tough and when it comes to your best friend, well you run out of words and thoughts. It becomes tougher then you could ever imagine. For you to know much about your bestie you have the idea no word you say can comfort the moment of grief and one after another you attempt to fish word out of yourself. I wasn't there in times of her happiness like when she got married or gave birth to her first child but today when she told me about losing her father, I cannot be anywhere else in the world. And so when the promises were made in tenacity, its time to patron as said…yes I do. 

A change as good as development.

India will change, our country will change one day. And the change will be for everything around. There is nothing constant left in our country, we have changes in myths, issues and most of it 'us' and some changes are not good, every change is not as good as 'development'. Every morning when I open and spread the newspaper I cleverly escape or to be more appropriate avoid reading the pages with huge heading printed in red ink 'Nation', I also avoid watching news channels with anchors reading to fifty or hundred top stories of the day because they are filled with such changes, changes which may not be as good as 'development'. There are stories of massacre, curfew or an aggressive protest of a community fighting for reservation. I mean why do we need that reservation? We all are born as same human being with efficient brain working. More heart breaking are the news contents of violation against women and girls or increasing rapes in country. I remember when I was in school or college I had to write essay or debate on female foeticide even during my media studies I made number of projects radio features, documentaries, ppt on gender ratio and female foeticide or other social issues and every time I did my research, I was devastated. Few days back there was huge outrage after a girl openly came to media stating how she was eve teased and on the other end there was a girl trampled by car both drove by a guys. The current situation is such that I dont feel female foeticide a bad thing. People might take me into hideous or lunatic category but look around yourself, is it really safe for a girl to be born in such a country or society where she have to struggle everyday to walk on road comfortably or 'freely'? Where she not teased, abused or trampled everyday at every stage. We talk about gender ratio and what happens after thousand girls over thousand guys? More number of these crimes! The girls living with the humiliation of being born in this country where they dont get their basic right of locomotion? Soon there would be no man left in this country who could promise his sister or daughter safety in the society as they themselves will belong to the same tank of slaughtering freedom of women. So why the government is making policies and spending tax payers money on gender ratio programmes because now the age doesn't even matter, she may be of two years, twelve or twenty she is abused everyday. Rather the government can setup finishing schools in every block of the country for guys where they are taught standard of living with basic behavioural principles and stoping the culture of unleashed foxes walking in every street. 

And this will be a change, change as good as 'development'.

Does change of heart, changes your deeds too?

After Salman Khan sentenced imprisonment, the whole social media is whooping with messages supporting him and calling the verdict biased! Stating he is a good “being human” and did so much for people, and so he shouldn't be given such a tough punishment. But is it really so, can a change of heart is able drape all your past deeds and allows you to be accepted as purified man because you got few millions to spend on active groups in the society after your guilt of ruining lives has given you n number of sleepless nights. I am a Salman fan too, but just because I love watching his movies do not make sense to say the judiciary did something wrong. 

PS: And thankfully we can say, it’s delayed but not denied at least for this time.

What do we choose.

What is Mortality? It is the gift from God. Gift that unleashes us from all the realms in this world where the body we are living in facing all the pain and doused in sorrows is relieved and is given a chance to choose a new life, a chance to discover new creation again. Immortality is not caution gift, though a threat of living in the same pain throughout the time, which never ends. We spent whole life collecting ashes from the past and become the person of today. What does Immortality brings to us? Immortality only witnesses the world transiting into greyer and greyer with every passing moment. Immortality does not give us a master or a guide who can take us to know the tranquility of the space. It does not even give us the reason of survival. Then why we human look up for immortality, where all we need is mortality.