Saturday, 19 December 2009

hmmmm...lots of things to do

“You should learn by mistakes of others, because u will not live long enough to make all of them by own self” but that should not be the attitude when it comes to trying and doing different things in life, which we call “dream to do” yaaa… I am going crazy now…

yes I am becoming wild and actually frantic of doing so many things in my life so here comes few thing which I have discovered I would like to do in my life time so here the list goes on..

5 things, I just love about winter.
1. The cold breeze...
2. I can wear lots of make-up it never sweats in winter.
3. Bonfire parties I loveee it with grilled fish and barbeque.
4. Lots of hot cups of coffee.
5. My black and red sweater.


5 things, I want to do this winter.
1. Eat lots of ice creams at a time.
2. To buy a cool black jacket
3. Learn to make “Irish tea & coffee”
4. Watch james cameron’s “AVTAAR” nothing to do with winter but it’s the season’s biggest blockbuster
5. Learn to drive a car


5 things, I love do before I die.
1. To be proficient in “Tarrot” reading.
2. To do photography at “Ladakh”, seriously I am waiting for it.
3. A cruise trip and explore few continent.
4. A long vacation with loved ones at “Seychelles”.
5. To visit “Times square”


5 things, I wish science can gift.
1. Charging free mobile (I hate to cable it daily)
2. A time machine (I want to meet Cary Grant)
3. Permanent lenses (so irritating wearing and cleaning daily)
4. A medicine which can cause no carbohydrate and cholesterol to get activated in body.
5. Dry wash for hair (I get annoyed shampooing daily)

5 places, where I want to eat.
1. at a Punjabi dhaba on a highway.
2. Roadside stalls..(hmm the momos, soup, rolls they are just delicious, cant resist)
3. Bordi’s authentic barbeques
4. Mughalai at “AMENIA” (their reshmi kawab, biriyani, n razala are best u can ever have)
5. At a posh restaurant (right now can’t afford so postponed)


5 things, I would like to own in my life.
1. A “PORSCHE” with a navigator of course, not good enough with roadways.
2. A telescope, (to view more twinkles and can make myself more dreamy and romantic)
3. An exclusive make-up range. (I am talking to girlish but I would die to have it)
4. An island, (I wish I can become rich like TATAs one day..!!)
5. A chain of five star spas in capitals.


5 things, I would like to change.
1. Peoples’ civic sense while driving oh they are just awful.
2. Delhi’s traffic system. It is so dreadful.
3. Summers, I wish it could be 12 months winter here.
4. Dhoni, (I want Ganguli to be captain again..)
5. My pc I want a plasma monitor now.

But that’s enough now. My brain has done overtime and I am not going to pay it. And as time rolling on I am tired and need a sound sleep.
Good night every one
Love you
Deepika….

Thursday, 17 December 2009

i still remember...




I still remember, the first time when we met,
I still remember, when you asked me my name,
I still remember, the first time you called me,
I still remember, when you said you love me.

I still remember, when we nattered on phone,
I still remember, when we chatted for so long,
I still remember, I loved you through my soul.
I still remember when you left me all alone.
I still remember, how much I loved you,
I still remember how much I missed you.

So many times I cried, thousand times I asked why?
But there were no replies from your side.


I needed to say you one time that I can’t live without you,
I needed to say you one time, I always loved you.


I still remember, how I pleased you not to go,
I still remember, the way you left me all alone.


Years later you were back again,
Giving me a life, making me immortal again.


I can’t believe it, the way you came back,
I can’t believe it, you were with me again.


I remember, when we sat on that bench,
I remember, the promises that you made,
I remember, when we saw the sunset,
I remember, the promises that I made.


I remember, when you called me by my name,
I remember, you promised not be fake.
I remember, when you held my hands,
I remember, the way you were back.


I remember, when you called me again,
I remember, when we nattered again.

Don’t deny it, that you never left me.
Don’t deny that you never saw me in your dreams.
Don’t blame me, that I asked you to go,
Don’t blame me, if you had an ego.


I started living, I started loving,
I started cherishing, I started caring
Now, I was in love with you again,
How can I forget you were back again.


I closed my eyes, I saw you face,
With spreaded smile, I shied with grace.


I still remember, the first time when we fought,
I still remember, it was last time when we talked.


I want to ask you, why you were gone again?
I want to ask you, why you did it to me again?
You hurt me, the way you always do.
You left me the way you always do.


I can’t forgive you, for the way you left me,
I can’t forgive you, the way you said no to me.


You left me, as you did before,
I cried, as I did it before.


I sat on that bench, but you were not beside,
I saw the sunset, but you were not nearby.
You broke my heart the way you did before,
You never understood why I loved you for.


I still forgive you, because I know how much I love you,
I still forgive you, the reason I always loved you.


Don’t come back, I don’t want to be hurt again.
Please don’t come back, I can’t go through that pain again.


I still remember, the way you left me,
I still remember, what you meant to me.
I still remember, the way you were gone again,
I still remember, the pain you gave me again..

Tuesday, 15 December 2009

Enticing.. Great job

Aahhh. Great .. what master piece, seriously people last day I went to Indian habitat center, thereby I went to a painting exhibition. There were few painters works displayed, but I liked simultaneously all of Vijender Sharma’s paintings, its colors, texture, theme and everything. Its was just so wow!!.. It seems to be real and a connection which actually coerced me to think. And I am still into it.



Then I went to photography gallery by Tarun chabra another great show. ohh!!.. My God I never knew lenses can tell more then words. What an imaginative mind he has. All women in so colorful sarees, but with a veil hiding their faces from men around. That truly gives the idea of domination over Indian women by male sovereignties. It really touched me.


How they can do such great jobs. Really I wish I could have even a percent of their imaginative mind.


Now I will always go to watch out those stuffs regularly, and try to return with something creative.


Cheers


Deepika..


Monday, 14 December 2009

dream come true


Aahhh!!…its true, yes its true, not a dream, it really happened to me.



Oh gosh!! I can’t write it in words, what I felt when I first time placed my foot on stage. Uumhh..!!


It’s not like I never been to stage before, but being in a dance group is different than performing an act on stage, where people will listen to your voice. With no mics around you have to deliver your dialogues with high pitch still maintaining a soft tone is a tuff job to do, but this was the day for which I spent last month’s every evening rehearsing just to hear one applause by the audience while performing.The best appreciation an artist could get and thankfully for my first act show I got some. It gives a tremendous satisfaction when you hear people laughing and clapping after your dialogues ensuring you that they are actually enjoying your piece of work.


Very same morning when I reached SRC for our dress rehearsal one of my co-actor took me to the stage, while the time all light work were going on only a spot light was flashed on stage. I occupied the space under the spot light an rolled my eyes over  each an every corner of the auditorium, it instantly gave a spread to my face, and then I closed my eyes and got an illusion of people clapping loud n loud people shouting ‘great show’ and again clapping I could actually hear the sound, I could feel the energy but that was not a false dream when I opened my eyes I knew the next few hours would change me I will happier person, I knew the dream I saw, standing there on stage with the spot light on me, that my dream will turn to be real very soon. At 4 pm we started our dress rehearsal it was day's first too, it stretched by 6.15 pm and just before my scene that I needed to rehearse the doors were opened and audience started pouring to the auditorium and then the curtains were fetched down and I didn’t actually got a chance to check my pitch. The show was just about to start in next 10 minutes. I came into the wings area and saw Guru jee performing rituals before the show the curtains were down, when I saw towards my left, it was Manoj sir with folded knees praying for a good show. And then it was me to pray next, to ask God to give me the power, determination and energy to do my job, I was nervous because I didn’t got any dress rehearsal, I didn’t knew how my voice is going to sound like. Just one day before the show I met to an accident while on my way to home, where an auto hit me, and my right leg got injured, I got deep scars bleeding and most fatal was the pain I was not able to walk properly. With bandaged wrapped around I was still enthusiased about my job. They were just the hurdles that I needed to pass from to achieve my dream. And then it was the final time.


6.35pm the show started, light where on, the auditorium was filled with audience, and then the show started while running back stage I didn’t felt any pain in my leg I don’t know what actually kept me going it was just the feeling of “ON STAGE”. My scene was the second last scene where I have to shout out loud in pain. When the stage got dark and I was taking position I don’t know what happened to me, I was not me! I was not at all thinking about my family who were there in the audience, not about the people whom I invited, not about the audience reaction, not about what any of my co-actors. I was just the lady in that yellow saree, wearing glass bangle, vermillion and a bindi as a rural women would dress like. During my scene I heard claps and laughter and when it ended I gone to the back stage and my co-star appreciated me. Oh! I came to know I did it. And when the show ended all artists were asked to join the stage. After honoring Guru jee, Tarun Thiyam jee was asked to give flowers to the artist and after Guru jee introduced every artist individually, when my named was called oh claps!! and I was so satisfied.


And when I asked Guru jee how was the show he said ‘achcha kaam kiya’ the best compliment I got. And than Bharti sir too like it so what else I can ask for.


I AM HAPPY VERY HAPPY..


Wednesday, 9 December 2009

my first play on 11th december 2009


Wow,, its just 2 days from now. First time I will be on stage doing what I always wanted to do. My first theatre play is on 11th December at 6.30pm in shri ram centre, I am so excited anxious nervous, it’s a cocktail of feelings. I waited for this moment for so long and now when it’s really happening to me, I just don’t know either its for real or a dream. If it’s a dream I don’t want to wake up, I would like to laze down with closed eyes throughout my life.



I am doing this play with Satish Anand and Omprakash Bharti (playwrite). Satish sir is being one of the acclaimed actor, director in theatre who is also been former Vice Chairman to Bihar Sangeet Natak Academy, Patna, Former Artistic Director, Shri Ram Centre (SRC), New Delhi and currently DEAN , Department of Acting, AAFT (Asian Academy of Film & Television) Noida. He has also won some prestigious awards like SNA Award (National Award), PARISHAD SAMMAN (State award Delhi), Bhikhari, Thakur Shikhar Samman, Sera Paanch Samman, IFTA Kolkata.


The play is named “Bandh Tootne Do” is a rural play based in Bihar on the bank river cosi. With the modern criteria of government building dams in rivers, corrupted engineers filling their pockets with governments’ money at risk of thousand of villagers lives and greedy insurance corporate to mold villagers to invest in oder snatch the relief at times of disasters, generating greed in villager’s soul. Like every year after the monsoon the damn in again in a state to collapse and whole area would come under flood. The traumatized villagers seeking for some help from government, in condition, if the damn collapse and flood covers their village, all their homes, land, crops, cattles and natives will be demolished. Few greedy villagers making plans how to grab relief in flood, and few villagers depressed about the adversities of the flood. And than one day the damn finally falls out. Now what happens to the village and villagers is what u have to came and see on 11th December 2009 sharp at 6.30pm at shri ram centre.